Work experience

So in my first ever seminar that I attended yesterday, I found out that a girl is going to be having her work experience in none other than NME magazine. In my head, I was thinking, "you f*****g b***h, how the f**k did you manage that?? arrrghh, I will kill you and get your ID and go as you! Regardless the appearance differences(which is vast)". But soon I realised, this was because I was extremely jealous. I want to do that! But yeah, I always happen to  be the one who does not excel but the one who is gutted to see others go forward. But not any more, as I will try and do something about my career that is going to get me something better and worthwhile in the future. But of course, I am extremely lazy.